Lost fame

Halcyon attitude which I owned a time ago and ignorance to what my homies wanted me to become make me repent today.
  Abilities , the mind, the power of grabbing the meaning of a myriad of words ,that intellect I know I own but I neglected!!!
I came into a dark penumbra for I thought it to be light; I ignored the Talisman I owned for I got attracted to the resplendent false symphony of a silently sonorous act played in front of me wisely . clever of His beguiling world!!!
  QIBR , what my father always forbade me to even go close to , grabbed me with all its power and now I be a PARANOID.
Murmurs of the false verses amused me when I actually forgot the hymns I had to pay heed to. 
  "GOOD THINGS BE BAD AT TIMES WHEN NEGLECTED". 
                --Shafaq Shahid
It was since me being in high school and my lithe participation in everything up to winning everything. The iridescent of fame stroke my eyes and made me blind to the fact that I won one of it but not all of it. It led me to considering people inferior .
   "WHAT WILL THEY TEACH ME
      HOW WILL THEY DEFEAT ME
       WILL I TALK TO THEM"
AND TODAY IT'S LIKE
     " THEY TAUGHT ME
        THEY DEFEATED ME LONG BACK
        AND I DON'T EXIST."
Pride grabs, enchants, castes a spell , and throws you back to the depths from where sighs come out , that too seldom.
Now I realize how ethereal beauty beautifies you and how you reach the zenith and BAANNNNNNGGGG!!! YOU FALL.
Felicity from reality is eternal but languid , a bit slow, but mellifluous.
I takes a very huge caprice to push you back from those depths. so never fall into self pride or superiority.