The question

I once had an "emotion test", sounds stupid but a kinda machine based test to get to know what I was feeling at that moment - how silly of humans for when a human can't guess what another human feels how could a machine master this trick !!! Suddenly the result was "I quit , you are a mix of all emotions" , I laughed for a while and went away . But it was something I was convinced to accept at some points of my life . 
  I have always been a step aside from everyone mentally . It was something that brought me to halt at times , to a halt of living , believing in myself  ; for  I had stupids around me. .. yes stupids , who kept on chortling their false verses vein by vein . 
Confidence in oneself is a must no matter regarding what it's supposed to be and it was something I never possessed . I had a fear of accepting my identity , lacked freedom of knowing of my existence as an important one . My thoughts never were agreed with and plans were abused . 
   I kept on reading things over different websites ,
      "Great people never mix up"
    "To win one needs to expect a win"
And much more , kinda motivational phrases . Then I felt like thinking over it every night before sleep , or even I used to quit my sleep to think that what makes me so meek of my being , so unsure of my existence . 
   I can write , and I write good for at least my own reading. I study well , I am good at extra curriculum , I can sketch , I can sing , I can craft . I am a good host , I am an adored emcee whome audience loves whenever I be a presenter , I speak well , but couldn't find the answer .
      Then at an event at Kashmir university I was the presenter of the show , something I often used to be----- but this time was different for in a section I had to fellicitate three of my best friends who were doctors that year and I wasn't and I was ashamed as hell and after the fellicitation I went backstage when Dr. Iqra makhdoomi held my hand and said , "you have something we can never have , your way of presenting yourself , your way of grabbing audience to yourself and your way of expression , then she smiled and went away. 
And that day I realized the question I had been wandering for an answer of was never a question but just a negative vibe ... I never had a question .